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Black Nothing Open your eyes to see the paroxysm Spread your filthy wings And reach out into the black nothing You're imagination has created Wholesale destruction Aborted hero's, godlike ways You keep away from the genocide rays Tainted manner, sinful prayers at night And yet,You went down without a fight Oblivious the fact that everyone's loathing alone You've been abused all the way to the bone We've set aside the repulsed ones Contraband for the mad Juxtaposing the joyous And killing them one by one Broken Shallow lies The fuckers don't seem to care With my lost days I've seemed to kill what's left of you I should have walked away But they made me stay Fuck the ones who say You'll never make it anyway Locked you down Helped you drown It's not the best time to fight All along we were right Make us cry Help us die And when we get through We'll kill you The flawless murders The fucked up rapes Inside you're the killer Inside your cold Dead Inside Painted on Surface lies The angry see with jealous eyes We can't hold on Our faith is gone We're all dead inside Tell me that you're ruined within          And your only way out is to sin Keep to miserable ones occupied Inside they have already died We weren't always like this All alone Drown us with misery Corrode our faith How does it feel to be dead inside Destruction for the angry death for the weak Ignorant faces Fucking Strange places The worst is yet to come Drag you down It's just a misery Hypochrondria You can't escape this world An epitome to society Something is infecting you Making you vile with each stride Now it's time to crash and burn Gingerly watching your vivacity fade Denigrate what's special to you Blinded by association Given only a day To fix everything you've screwed up Your no longer the example Again just another disease Death Prayer I cried a million tears for you Just so I could say That when your slowly dying This prayer I will pray Left the world feeling weak Nothing new to see, Nothing more to seek Pale faces, salty tears As you pass on Forget all of your fears Misery is no longer your fate And death is a curse A heavy and painful weight Tear away at the last days We only thought That this disease would be a faze Now your gone...you've past away In the dirt, The darkness you will forever stay No Salvation Never explained never a notion Repeated over a breathing motion Caught in the black nothing spinning around The brittle glass hits and drowns out the sound The only choice you have is to live Salvation is the one thing your god never gives We all see what shallow lies he's said After all we've done, kill and binge We'll stitch together the raw wounds Cut and tear, then we singe Tell me why you cry Why you always seem to die Right in my hands And in the end our pallid self pity Will mean nothing Nothing at all You're God and Savior Will continue their lust And amongst the lies; Deny your salvation The Fulfilling The happiness so long I've sought Destroyed by senses over-wrought No, happiness can not be bought While life in hate-filled prison caught Though happiness is all around It escapes with leap and bound In pallid self-pity I drowned The bubbles rise without a sound The thought of happiness delight It flies and swells like boisterous kite But cries and flees from my short sight And leave me to eternal night Bereft of feeling, left alone Darkness, doubt, the deep unknown My loneliness will be atoned When I lie stiff on a slab of stone But now the hate, with kisses, sears My soul and cloaks my mind with fears My ignorance like heavy spears That shatter peace, as salty tears So sullen now my soul doth sigh I can't continue in this lie Thought happiness may pass me by I'll get my soul full when I die No Salvation: No end to this perfect Hurt Tell me the reasons Tell me why You always seem To make me cry As I drown out my misery For just a while It all comes back because of you Tell me why Tell me why Why you always seem to die inside Right in my hands And in the begining I new No good Could come of this One big mess All because You can't express Lost Here it is My moment of decay I gaze at nothing As I try to find a way Through my pallid sence of thought A stillness overcomes and again I am Lost This empty look Sends a stream of horrid Memories long existing I can't comprehend The fear This never ending trend I am alone in this world Once again This is where the hurt Decends along side Of my repeticious cuts And the understanding of it all Can't cure the misery A misled world that will always say I am lost Forever To me You are forever Can you believe the fight the struggle Our souls to flee now or never Guns to help cure the weak We told them and they only had death to seek But you fought in this moment quickly caught The hate of it all but to me you are forever why can't I see, See the ruin inside there's nothing here binge on lies and cyanide can you see the pain I tried to hide we can't be together but to me You are forever The Beautiful You  10/21/2001  I'd give the world to hold you I'd fall away from this life To comfort you in every way I'd Parish, simply fade away To be a part of you I'd kill the love Of everything I ever had To spend one night With the beautiful you I'd kill my motivation My vavacity To watch you sleep on a perfect world I'd drink to the bottom of every bottle Just so you could live Without the pain and fear I would kill every part of me To let you exist with endless love And tear away at my most adored memories to be with you. Time Collapses 10-31-01 The sky falls towards her Consuming every thought But even this fake world Can't help her The one she fell for The torment, the shame There's no escaping An endless anguish Sent to cure of past decent the mechanical differnece and a prolonged love couldn't help her the longer days The malevoent thoughts within her world where time collapses Down maybe one day we will awake The love I feel for you, is nothing I can just create It had grown and it has died It will Rot and still I spend every moment trying to figure out this bittersweet thought for this feeling of misery, causes me to love Ignor the one who adores you I can't decide This passion I'll shove All of it back inside, the end of it all This feeling of love will only build up and fall What you've done to me I cry Catatonic to only me, it seems I can no longer try Can't you see I need, long for me always refused I wash this pain away but in my heart It will always stay

These poems are pretty old. I wrote them in 1999. (heh old..) What We're Made Of We're made of the darkest days Put together to form hate And given contraband  to forget all our pain This is what we're made of A misery for you and me This sea of hatred This is what we're made of The City Of Hatred In a world of hate, rage, and fear It's not alright to shed but one tear Drowning in fear the city goes under The sight of lightning, and bursts of thunder As you watch society as it falls apart You look ahead as it affects your bitter heart As you breathe in the cold lifeless air You wonder if anyone really does care If they could predict the deaths all around These things will continue; they can always be found

::11-16-01:: Symphony What lies be told What truths be known I awake to a world Silent and tourtured I feel alone The skies open To reveal what does lie ahead But we won't remember The seas did calm But the people went on Screams from another world But they didn't care Wraped up in past memories Don't let them see You blieve Don't let them see You bleed What we've become will they ever understand it or will we live in a cradle of life filled with secret pity silent hurt eternal Misery I wrote these poems all sometime this week. The first two I wrote last night (11-09-01) ädored addiction  Learn to hold on When fear does overcome. Retell the many stories Of your victorious battles, of binges and lies. You say things will change, but that tale will surface. The cover will fall. Corrupt and distored, And you thought It was the end Forever:parish. Could you feel The captured darkness? They don't understand What it's like To live for the next rush The sweet But always destroying Feeling This fucked system can you feel it Slowly rip you apart the adored addiction From The End The Thoughts I can't express Make my world collapse This love I have Tears me apart The lonliness I endure Makes Me feel So close To You Abandoned; but that's what I want            My cries, my screams. The hollow feel, To every love I have. Apathy and no one To help me cope, I fall again. This silent dimension of emotions and tears, remind me of this Never ending emptiness. I won't last for long; People will never see. Some meant well, Others shake this foundation Brake my innocent view of life I saw the end, My fate to be. But I never feared. I'm on my way home.            Let Go I've lost so much This society holds no truth Only decaying motives I've killed so much Anger they will never understand Inside, they think I know I've abandoned so much A vile change, oh the bitter thoughts Lost what I live for I've given precious love, To the ones who feel no emotion And gained a tighter grasp I will bless the deranged, Adore the thrill And broken thoughts Will emerge again I wish I could let go Of the melancholy It's simply my addiction Solitary Moment You weren't ready for this So sudden, now it seems You can't escape Envision this Your virtues And a solitary moment What you've gained Through tears and trials Is now nothing more Than the never ending history This could have An everlasting Effect on the dearest souls You're lost again You've given me no reason No reason to try A fiend for misery You've dragged me down And now, I can't escape Is this what you imagined Planning my fall Just to say You've accomplished Something great? Pretty soul, You've got an illness And I don't feel anything Laying down, You and me. Watching you choke on this blind emotion Bound to the floor In this solitary moment

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I'm lookin' at buyin' a new domain so not much is goin up on this site sanymore. But I've decided to put up new poetry whenever I get the time. ~Dannielle 11-21-01